It's been an interesting morning. I have my long awaited psych intake this morning where I will finally start the journey of finding the right medication. If you've been reading this blog long, you know how long coming this has been.
Let me say this: I am grateful we have a public health system in place (as shoddy as it is!), however...
I am dissapointed in the needless suffering of some that is due to harmful policies and the actions of my state's leaders. The amount of time it has taken me to receive help is astounding. If it weren't for my faith I don't know if I could have held on this long. I look forward to getting myself back up to par so that I can return to advocating for those that need help navigating this shoddy system.
My therapist had asked me to firm up some dates of past experiences so that I can give the pysch an accuate history during today's intake. In all honesty, I am not looking forward to discussing these matters this afternoon. Working on these issues one at a time is really no problem for me. It is having to think about them all at one time that can be overwhelming.
Today, I will remember that I don't have to act on my feelings but I do need to process them. I will remember that what I am feeling is temporary. I will do my best to recognize that feeling in my stomach which tells me I am reacting rather than responding to the events of the day.
Today I am grateful for not only my own experience, strength and hope but for those people over the years that have shared their own experiences with me. What a wonderful gift given - the gift of hope.
Hope is a powerful gift. I've experienced some glimpses of hope in recent years that have helped me get through things. Hoping it all works out for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you find the right medication and it works.
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