tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12486133485864685852012-01-24T13:12:57.367-08:00~~BRB Queen~~http://www.blogger.com/profile/14076594460274713944noreply@blogger.comBlogger1551100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1248613348586468585.post-90631502200620403832012-01-19T12:11:00.000-08:002012-01-19T12:11:27.680-08:00

So I have this not so secret little crush. It's Steven Tyler. I think he is just the sexiest thing out there. This just makes him even more sexier. That is all.  Carry on.  :)

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I'm back up and running on a computer, finally. It is so odd to type on a keyboard rather than an ipod or cellular device! Things are going ok in my little area of the world. I'm working on staying out of the dark hole that is depression. It's much lighter in the hole these days and I'm working on making it brighter. Still sober and still nicotine free.  I can't tell you how thrilled I am to be

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Just checking into the blog world to wish you all a happy holiday season! Still without a computer here and I really don't like posting from my phone.;) Enjoy your holidays. Love your people. They won't be here forever. Make memories! Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.1

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Saw this today and had to chuckle ! I also needed the reminder.

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Blogger came out with an app for iOS. Dont mind me - I'm just testing it out.

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I miss my blogworld! My computer is on the fritz and my ipod is not conducive to blog writing. I just found a blogging app and thought I would give it a try. Things are better hear. I finally got my mental health services and have been treating my depression.I am still sober. I will have one year nicotine free in the 26th. That blows my mind!My daughter has been doing a some experimenting so

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Trudging the road to some peace of mind here.  I'm adjusting to my meds and making some life style changes. I'm looking forward to getting back to normal... whatever that is! :)

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I got a call from my son this morning as he was walking to catch his train on the way to work.  It was my happy Mother's Day call. I love those calls where he so openly shares about what is going on in his life. This was my second call from him this week. This is the boy who grew up with an actively using and drinking mother (and father). The first amends I made was to him (he was around 17)

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It's been an interesting morning. I have my long awaited psych intake this morning where I will finally start the journey of finding the right medication. If you've been reading this blog long, you know how long coming this has been. Let me say this: I am grateful we have a public health system in place (as shoddy as it is!), however... I am dissapointed in the needless suffering of some that

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Parenting has been a real challenge lately. My mood swings, coupled with the normal moods and angst of a 13 year old girl, make for a not to peaceful household at times. I am doing my best to have an awareness of what I am feeling but the reality is I fail at times. Many amends have been made. I am "it" when it comes to the parent in this house. That means I am the only one who says no. I'm

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In response to an email I received, I wanted to make a post sharing some of the tips that enabled me to get and stay sober in the beginning. Tell Someone. Seek at least one person in your life that is a  safe person to be accountable to. Someone who won't shame you should you fall. This also begins our process of losing the shame and guilt. Detoxing is a medical condition. It is not a bad idea

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Hope is some extraordinary spiritual grace that God gives us to control our fears, not to oust them. ~Vincent McNabb

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I get a massage almost every week no matter where I am, eat a healthy diet, schedule time alone, and if I get to a point where I feel I need a block of time...I'll cancel.-- Anne Wilson Schaef Do we love and care for our body as well as we love and care for our home and car? Do we feel our body deserves full attention and a loving maintenance plan? Taking our body for granted is easy because of

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I lost track of my to-do's! I forgot to thank Crying Out Now for the opportunity to share my story earlier this month. Crying Out Now is a community of women speaking about addiction and recovery - telling their truths, breaking down the walls of stigma and denial surrounding addiction - One Story at a Time.

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I detoxed at home while taking care of two kids. Alone. Afraid. Praying to make it to that 7th day when I could enter the treatment groups. Each day I would go to the doctor and get breathalyzed and then given that days amount of librium but let me tell you this.... that librium reduced my chance of seizures but it did nothing for my nerves! Those of you that have detoxed off of alcohol know of

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Waiting Wait. If the time is not right, the way is not clear, the answer or decision not consistent, wait. We may feel a sense of urgency. We may want to resolve the issue by doing something - anything now, but that action is not in our best interest. Living with confusion or unsolved problems is difficult. It is easier to resolve things. But making a decision too soon, doing something

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I'm a bit of a paradox today.  I'm still waiting for the psychiatry appointment, but am seeing the social worker weekly in the mean time. My depression is not getting any better but worsening. I'm hanging on with white finger tips right now.  I told the counselor today that I don't think I can do this any longer, and what scares me the most is that I don't know what "not doing it" means. At

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As I mentioned, I started counselling last week. Yesterday was my second appointment and it was the history taking appointment where I talk about my life and let the counselor get to know me. Once again, I was shown that this recovery stuff really works. The last couple of years (ish) of my drinking I really  drank AT situations within myself and my family. My relationships were very strained,

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I recently found the Scarleteen website.  It is a sex education site for teens, parents, educators, etc. There is a book written by the webmaster called S.E.X.  you can find the link on the website. I can't tell you how helpful this site has been for me in preparing for another talk with my teen. I am reading the book and then going to give it to her. It is called a progressive sexuality guide

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I finally had the mental health appointment this week. I was diagnosed manic depressive/bipolar by the counselor and will get further information when I meet with their psychiatrist. That psych appt isn't for another month.  I got pretty emotional when she told me  I would have to wait until mid may to even begin medications. I'm to tired for that. I've been fighting this without assistance for

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This has been a hell of a week in the parenting department. I feel like I have won some and lost some. Sometimes, being the only parent, I can doubt myself. I sometimes wish there was someone else to back me up when I have to be the bad guy and set punishments or say no. Sometimes, like this week, events happen and I fear making the wrong move. It's easy to get mired down in self pity and make

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Today, March 30th, I celebrate 7 years of recovery. Seven years ago I was waking in a bed of my own urine and not caring. Seven years ago I was not able to look myself in the mirror without telling myself what a loser I was. Seven years ago I was going to bed each night praying that God would take me in my sleep, and then waking the next day so angry that I had to do my life one more day.

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Wow! Time does get away quickly! Each day I say I'm going to log in but fail to do so. I think a break was needed. With not working, I was starting to spend way too much time online. Things are moving along here. The floor is finally going in to my bedroom tomorrow! Wow... months later the bedroom move will be accomplished! I can't wait to have a space to escape my teen and I KNOW she can't wait

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Crying Out Now is putting together an anniversary video. Why not go help them out? Follow the link and submit a picture!

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MYSTERIOUS PARADOXES Such is the paradox of A.A. regeneration: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one's old life as a condition for finding a new one. (A.A. COMES OF AGE, p. 46What glorious mysteries paradoxes are! They do not compute, yet when recognized and accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond human logic. When I face a fear, I am given

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I said I was going to catch up with y'all and then come back. I didn't come back! Thanks for the messages, I am okay. The depression is taking a huge toll and I just have not felt like writing. Thank God a drink, drug or harming myself has not been an option. That is not true for everyone. A friend of mine took an OD of his prescription and laid in a wash to die two weeks ago. This has hit me

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I'm behind on my blog reading/writing. Gonna catch up today and then come back . :)

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We had a nice New Years Eve here.  The kidlet had been trying to make plans all week, but none of those plans seemed acceptable to me. She finally gave in and invited a friend to spend the night, which is our normal routine for that night. She also treated us to a dinner out of Mongolian BBQ before we settled in for the night. I really wasn't prepared for BOYS to want to come and hang out.

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I've decided to welcome the new year, rather than profess it to be "happy". Can you tell I am working on expectations? The only expectation I have of myself is to be aware of when I am acting out in unhealthy manners. Christmas was a good exercise in working on expectations. I had to keep telling myself that my need for continuing traditions was not necessarily the need of my family members. I

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It is definately feeling a lot like Christmas around here.  The tree  and other decorations (bad pic, sorry) are up.  I'm doing a second round of baking today, carrying on a tradition that my Nanny (gma) is unable to continue due to arthritis and my Bumpy's new diagnosis. We've had death and sickness the last few holidays and our kids are missing out on traditions. So instead of being sad about

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Wow! It's been a hell of a week! My daughter's dad was supposed to come for a visit, but changed the dates last week. Those dates didn't work with our schedule as they were the week  before Christmas, but  I told him I would do my best to accomodate him. Christmas is not the reason for his visit, he is Jehovah Witness and does not celebrate.  We do a lot of things that week, my daughter and I.

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I had been prescribed an anti depressant a few days before I lost my job in June. I stopped taking them as soon as I lost my job. I figured I lost my insurance, did not qualify for any medical assistance at the time and it was pointless to start something I could not continue.  Well, I started taking them again about 2 weeks ago since I am working on the insurance situation and see some light at

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Today's Gratitude:That my adult son initiates phone calls and shares about his life. A warm home. The ability to find gratitude today. The loyalty of my beagle, even though she is driving me nuts today ;-) The memories of my granny and I. That my teen made the honor roll. This shows her self esteem is up. The turkey thawing in my fridge that will become tacos tonight :)

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I hope you all had a nice holiday. It was small here - just kidlet and I. I still cooked us up a feast with all of our regular dishes. It was a lot of work to do by myself, but it was also therapuetic. The beginning of the week found us up at the lake with my parents. They've been parked up there since mid October and travelling back and forth between being here to babysit my niece and nephew.

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In an attempt to turn my mood around, I decided to head over to  Nimbus Fish Hatchery  this afternoon. It was a brisk afternoon and a welcome respite from the storm we have had the last two days. The salmon were climbing up the ladders after swimming back up river These are some huge salmon and they are very beat up from their journey.  Tomorrow morning the rangers will take their

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I'm trudging. I'm sober and nicotine free. I am grateful for that. It has been a major struggle not to smoke the last few days. I'm taking it a moment at a time. On the other hand, I have not felt as down and depressed as I do the last few days in many years. This is choking my every thought. My head won't shut up, it starts the moment I awake and makes it very hard to fall asleep. I'm going

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G R A C E = Gently Releasing All Conscious ExpectationsI love that definition of Grace. I've been working on my expectations of others. I noticed I have been laying my happiness partly on the behavior of others. It is so much easier to look at others than to look at my own behaviors and faulty thinking. We don't have to be around recovery circles for long before we hear that expectations are

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  Thank you to all of our Veterans out there and their families. This is one of my vets, my grandfather. This story is a couple of years old. My uncle followed in his footsteps serving in Vietnam. My cousin followed his dad and is active Army and has done 3 tours in Iraq.

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I'm working on quieting my mind. Meditation is something that has always been difficult for me to accomplish. I know, though, that it is crucial to quiet my mind.  I have no thoughts of drinking, but I have been around long enough to know that those thoughts can creep in at any time. My recovery is not hinged on battling the thoughts of drinking. My recovery is based on keeping myself in  a

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I started the process for help with my depression, but like I said, it's a process. I worked on pushing through the last week, being careful to pay attention to when my mind was going in directions that were not healthy.  The act of coming clean with how I am feeling here and with close friends was a good step in the right direction. Today, I am grateful for: Faith My sobriety. Through all of

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I'm really struggling right now. Still. This depression just keeps worsening, even when I try to fight it.  I really don't feel comfortable talking about it to people in my face to face life because it appears to make them uncomfortable. If I am being completely honest, I really don't feel like I have much support face to face these days. It amazes me how much the loss of my job and the rumors

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What a great week. My friend Sandy was here to visit. I met Sandy when I was 15, when I moved to Southern California in with granny and out of my parents home. We were immediately partners in crime and had great fun no matter what we were doing. Eventually, I drifted off to my druggy friends and she went another direction. We finally lost complete touch about 5 years ago. Apparently she had been

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We started our halloween decorating this week. My little niece and nephew, as well as kidlet and myself decorated the front yard and courtyard.  There is nothing like dollar store spider webs all over the yard to thrill the little ones. We also have some skeletons and ghosts hanging around. Once they realized I needed the step stool, they wouldn't get off. The attitude shown in the stance of

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I have depression and I've done a good job of ignoring that fact lately. I had just gotten back on meds when I lost my job in June and when those meds ran out I had already lost my insurance; COBRA was way to expensive.  There are problems with the local mental health system due to the budget crisis in California and I have also had a hard time getting approved for MediCal insurance.  I qualify,

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I received an email asking if all was alright and the answer is yes, I'm fine. I just haven't posted due to not feeling well and not being able to form a rational sentence! My mind has been seriously scattered. It's a combination between (cover your eyes boys!) PMS, peri menopause and the nicotine quit. It's been quite the week to say the least. I have cried over the stupidest things. Lordy!!

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I'm here, just quiet. I have so many projects going on that I am running in circles, but they are all necessary to complete this phase of life. We should be painting the kidlet's new room in a few days; my dad is nearly finished with the remodel of the garage for her. All of the decluttering that  have been doing so heavily the last few weeks has been a very emotional ride. It's not a bad thing

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Today I am celebrating 30 days of being cigarette free!! I am finally a non smoker!! Though some of the below points can still be pretty intense at times, at least I can laugh at them today. I think that ability to laugh at myself has been key in my success thus far. 20 Ways to Tell Your Quit is Working 1. Everyone around you has suddenly become soooooooo sensitive. 2. Every car on the road

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Today marks a year since my granny's passing. This is the first time I've lost someone so close to me. As I've written before, my granny was the most important person in my life besides my children. We were very close. She was the one person in my life that never said an unkind word to me, even when I was deep in my disease and not treating my loved ones kindly.  She was my biggest cheerleader.

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Do you hear that? It's quiet. The kidlet went to a friends after school with a group of girls and they went to the school dance from there. It's a few minutes before 9:00 p.m. and she will be home shortly. I wonder why they don't have these monthly dances on a non school night, like Friday? Oh well. Whatever. I've enjoyed just chilling. I had haagen daz (sp) green tea ice cream for dinner. I

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Higher Power, Please help me to stay focused on the positives so that I may give praise and instill confidence in my daughter. Please help me to get through the insanity of stopping smoking so that I can be healthy and an example to others that it is possible to be rid of this nasty addiction. Please help me to remember that You are here and that I am not alone. It is when I stay in your will and

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What a beautiful day it is here in California. The weather can't decide if it wants to continue with summer or bring in fall. It is very pleasant. I watched my first yellow leaf fall off the tree outside my window this morning. Today is Day16 of not smoking. Though there were a few rough moments (okay, that's a lie...they were horrendous torture) this week, I'm feeling good about this.  I'm also

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“For the readiness to take the full consequences of our past acts, and to take responsibility for the well – being of others at the same time, is the very spirit of Step 9.” Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, 87 The first person I made amends to when doing my first Step 9 was my son. I felt, and still feel, that he took the brunt of my disease. Of all the people in my life, I had caused him

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I almost forgot!! September is National Recovery Month.  Click on the banner to find activities in your area!

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Kidlet has pink eye and I am not to sure I am not coming down with it as well. We can thank my nephew for his wonderful knack of sharing! lol  In any case, she is quarantined to the house until this evening. We are getting along better than the last few times I have written.  I took a huge step today.  A friend that I sobered up with 6 years ago is getting ready to test for her addictions

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I felt like I had a smidgen of sanity today.  I worked really hard at it though. A smidgen is better than nothing. This is really like being brand new sober again. I am really in awe of the power of nicotine addiction. I gave myself a break today. I removed myself from everyone and anything that could be annoying.  I allowed the kidlet to go to a friends after school, it was a minimum day. I

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Our first objective will be the development of self restraint. This carries a top priority rating. When we speak or act hastily or rashly, the ability to be fair-minded and tolerant evaporates on the spot. One unkind tirade or one willful snap judgment can ruin our relation with another person for a whole day, or maybe a whole year. Nothing pays off like restraint of tongue and pen. We must avoid

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My dad and I were quite successful with our yard sale over the weekend. The "emotional items" that I had to let go of were taken by people whom each shared something with me that made me feel okay about giving it up. In fact, a couple of items I just gave away in order to make sure a certain person received it. I'm well into my 6th day of not smoking, and my 3rd day of being nicotine free. I

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                                                           My new pack of smokes.

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                                                            photo credit Just to spice the drama of my life up a bit, I decided to quit smoking. I've been 36 hours cigarette free. Well, 36 hours and 49 minutes. Let's give credit where credit is due because I tell ya.... this quitting business is a real bitch! I've tried with the patch many times, but I have sleep disturbances. My logic in

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                                                                      Henry Fuseli My mind tends to go freaky on me when I am doing heavy processing work; I get night terrors. I either have horrifying nightmares or I just wake terrified that some sort of evil force is coming to get me. I know, wierd. My old psych says it is also part of PTSD. It is rare that I even remember the nightmare more

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Trouble: Constructive or Destructive"There was a time when we ignored trouble, hoping it would go away. Or, in fear and in depression, we ran from it, but found it was still with us. Often, full of unreason, bitterness, and blame, we fought back. These mistaken attitudes, powered by alcohol, guaranteed our destruction, unless they were altered. "Then came A.A. Here we learned that trouble was

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It's been quiet around here. I've been ill since yesterday so I've been laying low, literally. My bed and my couch have been my friends.  So has OnDemand cable. The kidlet was gone at the waterpark today and I dropped her off at a friends this evening. I've got the house to myself and it is needed alone time after the busy last few weeks we have had. We obtained her 8th grade class schedule

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The camping trip went well. I believe the girls had a great time. The first night there was a "hawt" boy next to us. After much giggling and talking across the camp sites, he and his two female cousins came and sat in camp with us for a bit. More giggling ensued of course. :) We spent the second day on the beach.  The girls utilized the pedal boat quite a bit. They spent most of that day on the

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Mom's doing better. That is a relief. She should be coming home tomorrow if all continues to go well. In 2 hours my house will be filled with 12 and 13 year old girls. Kidlet, myself and 4 of her friends are leaving for camping this morning. I'm having a little trepidation over doing this on my own, but that will pass. We will have an adventure! lol My brother lent me a tent and was supposed to

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My mom had her second knee replacement of the summer yesterday.  The other knee was replaced in May. She's having some complications post surgery and prayers are greatly needed.

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The kidlet returns home this afternoon. It's been peaceful around here, but I am glad she is coming home. I missed her. I've had some difficult situations with her dad this week. I am not sure where his new found interest in texting me comes from, but it is annoying. I set a boundary with him and woke in the morning to a text stating F *** You. Oh, the good old days. I did not respond, nor do

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I am ever so grateful today.  My kidlet left for 4 days at the coast with one of her besties. I'd be lieing if I said I wasn't grateful for the parenting break, but what I am most grateful for is that in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous I received the gift of learning from the experience and strength of others. Two summers ago my daughter  was diagnosed with OCD .  She was tortured by her

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With an empty beach except for myself and my not so little girls. That picture was sent from my blackberry while sitting on the lake. It was a wonderful afternoon. We ended the day with a dip in the pool before taking the friend home.  Kidlet and I enjoyed our Friday night with Subway sandwiches and just hanging out with each other. Priceless.

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I may not be the most cheerful person today, but I did manage to let go of most of my feelings and find solutions. I am creative. I will make sure all goes well. Talking to another alcoholic (or two or three), figuring out my part, prayer, a nice nap and moving forward is always a good start to finding solutions.  It is what it is, staying worked up over it isn't going to change it. I still

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Speak when you are angry – and you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret ~ Dr. Laurence J. Peter It’s been a rough morning. I woke to my phone ringing from a text from the ex stating he would not be able to honor the financial contribution he promised for the kidlet’s trip this weekend with her besty’s family and the camping trip for her birthday. These are obligations we talked about. I

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A refreshing post I enjoyed today via Mr.Sponsorpants. See for yourself.

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It's been a rough week or so in the sleep department. I went off the melatonin thinking I could probably get by without it. Nothing like sitting on the couch, watching the sun come up while surfing infomercials to prove a girl wrong!  haha  Sleep will get back to normal after a few days of the melatonin.  In the meantime, I leave you with this dilemna. How in the hell does Corky cover himself

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The kidlet has been at a friends since last night. It's been nice to have some time to myself to decompress and just relax. I've did nothing but enjoy some Häagen-Dazs Green Tea ice cream last night and catch up with my DVR. This afternoon my parents were babysitting my niece and nephew so I went next door and swam with my nephew whom will be 5 a few days before kidlet's birthday.  We floated in

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Just booked the camp spot for kidlet's 13th bday bash in a couple of weeks. You can't tell from the picture, but we are lakeside and only about 20 yards from the swimming area. It also looks like kidlet's BFF's dad may bring the boat for a day while we are there for some tubing and wake boarding. If not, it will just be me and five 13 year old girls tent camping for 2 nights. Start praying for

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It's been a long week. I'm glad that my daughter and her dad were able to spend some time together. The two of them have a lot of work to do if they want their relationship to work though. If anything is going to hinder their progress, I think it will be their similar personality traits.  Kidlet mentioned that her dad might be considering moving here to be closer to her. While we were all at

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I took down the last two blogs because they were basically verbally vomitted fear. The ex's wife also mentioned adding me on Facebook and I don't think it would be fair to her to leave that up. My blog is linked to my Facebook account. The week has been full of taking my own inventory and making some changes in my thinking and actions. There is a new level of acceptance on a variety of areas. It

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This is a copy of a screenshot I took of my cell phone bill this morning and then emailed to kidlet. Thank God for unlimited plans!!  Look at the amount of text messages for one month!

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My daughter's dad is coming to town on Monday, with his new wife. We are all going to dinner. I'll write more on our relationship at a later time, but suffice it to say that I am thinking God is having a hell of a giggle up there right now as I quietly sit here freaking out, wondering what lesson is coming this time.

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How about going over to Ems and wishing her a good day. She turns ONE YEAR SOBER today! Woot!!! Woot!!

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Well, they are about 6 years late on this for me!  It's an alcoholic dream. I could be honest when I said I just had one glass!

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Spending some time at the local lake with my girls.

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A friend of mine's daughter was just arrested for possession. I'm a little unclear, but it may have been possession for sales. Oxy's. This man is in recovery himself and is beating himself up for not recognizing the problem. I'd love it if you all could leave him some words of wisdom on this blog in the comments so I can pass them along to him.

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Not a lot going on around here. I'm a bit restless but enjoying spending time just being a mom and playing taxi to kidlet and her friends. Damn, they are busy kids! After depositing her at a get together at her bestie guy buddy's house I invaded my parents back yard and meditated in the pool on my raft for a bit. It is so hard for me to keep my mind still and meditate, even after 6 years of

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I've been hit by the grief bug this week. I tell ya, I have much respect for it's cunning powers. If it weren't such a bitch, I would laugh.  I really have no idea what triggered it, but I was triggered intensely while watching The Bachelorette Monday evening. I know. Strange. I've stopped trying to figure it out and am just rolling with it. I've been trying to live in the spirit of the quote

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"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.” - Dr. Wayne Dyer    So true! Today, I choose to motivate myself by cleaning out some clutter and concentrating on today, rather than the past.

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Getting away from the "scene" of my unrest always does wonders for the soul.  That is what this camping trip did for me. It cleared my head and my heart from the last bit of residual "ick" I had left from losing my job. I have, in the past, done some intense drinking in that campground.  There are memories all over that place. Some are good memories. Some not so good. I missed my son while

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We got home from camping this morning. A good time was had by all. It was great to spend time with the kidlet and her besty that was stress free and with no time restraints or distractions.  She had no cell phone coverage! haha We spent leisurely mornings around camp then hung out at the beach for most of the afternoons.  The girls then explored on their own until dark -- more than likely

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Just a couple more hours and I will be camping in that very spot. We are right above the marina so the view from that table area will actually be the lake with nothing hindering the view. For the next 3 days you will find me here with my beautimous daughter , my fave little people the niece (2) and nephew (4), and one of kidlet's besties.  I love seeing the camping experience through the

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I dropped off the kidlet at her friend's house around 6:30 last night for bbq and then fireworks later after dark. The friends dad was going to take them to the fireworks show. As it was getting dark at 9:00, I got a call from the kidlet.  She asked if I could come and pick up the friend and her for fireworks, as the friends dad was drunk and unable to drive. So I picked them up and drove down

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..........a plate of chicken bones! For the first time in 24 years of parenting I will be without a child for the 4th of July. Kidlet told me this afternoon that she would like to go to a friends for fireworks and a BBQ. I've entered a new phase in life! lol

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This is the Alamodome where the AA conference is being held. My friend took it at the Flag Ceremony last night.  She said almost  every seat was taken - except for a small amount of nose bleed seats. I can't even imagine what it must have felt like to say the Serenity Prayer with 50,000 other drunks. To quote my friend Carol, it was ........ ABSOFREAKINLUTELY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It just

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What a rollercoaster the last couple of days have been. I woke this morning exhausted and emotional. I went to bed last night crying and woke up and went on the patio and cried with a cigarette and coffee. I threw a major fit about it all in an email with friends. I was so angry at life's terms.  Self pity made an appearance with it's buddy anger. Please God, what is it that you want me to

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: There will be access to an encrypted, anonymity-protected Internet broadcast of the 2010 International Convention Opening Flag Ceremony. Access through this link page will be made available on Saturday, July 3rd and end on Monday, July 5th at m...idnight (U.S. Eastern Time). This allows unlimited access within a time frame and no passwords or access codes will be required. Click here for

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The last few weeks have been quite the learning experience for me, in many areas.  Being let go from my job and then the events that have followed, the feelings I have worked through and the constant evaluation of my thoughts, behaviors and motives definately showed me once again that Steps 6 and 7 are indeed a lifetime job. The position I held was a drug and alcohol counselor at the local

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This morning's thoughts of gratitude: * Low income pricing from the gas company. Without it, I would be hating life without my air conditioning in the over 100 degree heat we are having. * The message on my cell phone from my son yesterday. I must have missed his call. I love these almost regular calls that are coming on Sundays. Recovery happens! * That life circumstances moved the kidlet and

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For some odd reason, my (letter after G) key is not working tis morning. It works on a rare stroke. Te (letter after G) is in my name and in my login user names for just about everywere I go. Tis could be a ellacious problemo! I'm trying not to panic ere! Good grief, come back to me (letter after G)! Update: My Hisbackbutmyspacekeyseemstobestuck  ha  ha haa Quality problems!

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Yesterday I had the opportunity to listen to a woman still in her disease.  She is at that spot where she dreads waking up because she knows she will have to face what happened the day before.  The terror comes from not knowing. I am reminded of this passage from the book of Alcoholics Anonymous. The less people tolerated us, the more we withdrew from society, from life itself. As we became

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Watching my dvr copy of today's Dr. Phil. I usually don't watch him, but today Emily  was on.  The topic was alcoholic women.  From the looks of today's comments it struck a chord with many people. Great job of spreading the message Emily!

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This is the kidlet and her two besties.( It's not the best picture, I know) They have been best friends since they were in first grade.My little girls are no longer little.  They are now 8th graders; all teens except for kidlet and she will be 13 in a few weeks.   It's 10:30 in the morning and they are still passed out.  Of course the dogs are with them! Princess is in there, she is just under

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